So about a week ago a friend asked me, How do I do it?, How do I live by myself.
She's only ever lived with her mom and then with her mom and daughter(she's a single mom). I really didn't have an exact answer for her. As much as I would like to have, I didn't.
This would be my ideal answer: "It's fuckin awesome, I do what ever the fuck I want to and no one says shit..." and more random stuff that would make it seem so easy and puts everyone's mind at ease about living by themselves.
This is my honest personal experience answer:
As scary as the idea was initially at the time, I was terrified. The fact that I needed to get used to it for the first month or so and crying every night to get over my loneliness and the quiet solitude that was going to come along with it, was a very hard pill to swallow.
The jist of how I ended up living by myself, I was told I needed to find another place to live.
When I lived with Jace, and he got his new girlfriend, I still had every intention of still being his roommate in the next place the 3 of us would get, and he was cool with that, bills would be split, I said 3 ways because hello, there was 3 of us. She wasn't working at the time and I said ok then, he'll be paying 2/3, only fuckin fair right? and the look on his face was a disapproving one.
My computer set up was right by the front door downstairs, if I wasn't at work, I was always on the computer, so they had to pass me. And apparently my attitude and "aura" wtf ever, I was giving off was very negative and they felt like they needed to walk on eggshells around me and it made them feel uncomfortable. And that is how I was kicked out. lol, you get the idea.
I've never lived by myself and I was scared to think about it. Not so much the loneliness, but the money side of it more so... I can't afford it, I can't afford to live by myself, with bills and having to buy food, household stuff, etc. I don't have a license, a car, the ability to just go somewhere when I need to. So I'm kinda strapped. But luckily I do have excellent friends that ask me if I need anything from a store and they would take me. I'm never the one to take advantage of anyone like that, although they never see it that way and sometimes drag me along anyways. lol. I love my friends. anywhos, I will on occasion accept and they know how grateful I am because I don't let them do it without me giving them money, they try to decline it, but I find a way to make them take it :-) I am very aware of my spendings now, I make sure bills always comes first, and then food, and then house stuff, and very rarely do I spend money on dumb stuff for myself. And I always seem to have money left over at the end of the month. Microsoft Excel is like my best friend.
Bottom line is:... I take it one day at a time. I will get better at this living by myself. Dont worry about Skully, she'll get through anything.
