... and i was not surprised

So today was the day I was pretty much told that I need to find another place to live. Not in so many words but that was the gist of it. It was denied that that was the intended result, but I can read between the lines. They smacked me right in the face and I have a feeling it came because of something that happened today. But it was bound to happen eventually so why not have it done sooner. Like a bandaid. Sucks because I think I just got put in debt because of the latest transaction that was made on my credit card for them... /sigh, you live you learn right.
I can do it, and if not... Family in Hawaii want me to come home and I might have to listen this time.

Silly people, I don't need help.

Someone told me that drinking alone every night is not the solution...
I'm not really looking for a solution, because I really don't have a question that needs answering.... Or a problem that needs solving.
I have issues, yes... I'm not denying that...
Maybe I do need a Therapist, but at the moment I think I can deal with shit myself...
Why pay someone thousands of dollars to listen to my problems when I can just tell my problems to a yummy alcoholic beverage. and guess what, they don't try to shove bullshit in your face telling you you need anti-depressants and some other crap like that. Besides the occasional lonely moodiness I think my head is on right and I deal just fine.
I have my freakouts, but no one is ever around to see them or get hurt. That is never my intention.
I honestly think people find me weird and I know this for a fact because people have told me so.
Real friends are the ones that let me march to the beat of my own nutty drum and like me just the same. I only know a handful of those people. I see myself only counting them on one hand.
I'm tired... good night